Augh jeez I don’t know what to ask (I can barely focus rn XD stupid adhd, not allowing me to think of a question), but I know what this feels like. If you ever need to talk or anything, I’m open to chat :) I’m here for you 💜



Aww, thanks. Depression is a bitch and – like I said to someone else just now – my brain just hates me today. Nothing is wrong; in fact, I objectively had a good day (when I wasn’t asleep). But depression doesn’t care about that, it just fucks your shit right up.

You can ask me anything. Literally anything.

Yeah, that’s true. I haven’t been depressed in a few months, not since I found Jack’s channel, but I still get scared it’ll come back, because I know it will, it’s just a matter of when. But it makes me enjoy my good days so much more, to the point where almost every day since then I would kinda just think to myself “I’m so glad to feel happy. I really just feel happy”. It’s an emotion most of us take for granted, but because I know such deep sorrow, I can fully appreciate happiness.

Aaaanyway, I rambled for way too long. I wanna ask a proper question, and I think I got one: Do you play video games? If so, what’s your favorite game so far? :p

I went through a rather nasty depressive episode before I regularly began watching Markiplier’s channel (back in April). Mark’s humour helped pull me out of it, for the most part, and I was able to keep treading water until I could get my prescriptions changed.

I had felt dead inside, and was afraid I’d have to go back to the hospital (when I hadn’t been there since 2012). How I feel right now isn’t nearly that bad, but it still sucks.

And you’re right, it does make you appreciate the good moments more. So, silver lining? Also, I have a doctor’s appointment on Wednesday so, if this goes on for more than a day or two, my doctor can help right away.

I love video games. And actually, my faves are the classic Nintendo stuff. Kirby, Mario, Spy vs Spy, Ninja Gaiden….


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