Removing yourself from the Discord server doesn’t mean we’ve stopped caring about you, or stopped caring about what’s happening in your life. It just means you’ve taken yourself away from a safe space you can go to when you need it.
Your punishing yourself won’t prevent people from caring.
And the people you were talking to do care about you, and kept begging you not to leave, even after you’d already left. I hope you will reconsider your self-exile and talk to your friends.
Everyone deserves love. And the ones who are hurting the most are the ones who really need it. You’re one of those people who need it, even if you feel like you don’t deserve it.
Please get in touch with your friends. You left some very worried people behind.